Men from Mars?

Hmmm....what am I thinking? A lot. Good, bad...confused thoughts all over me.

Now that I have calmed down, I realise the smoking issue below is not the real issue that I am mad about. And I wasn't mad, really. I was sad. Sad, not because of his smoking. Sad, because, he thought he could smoke in the bathroom, close the door without me noticing it. Sad, because, he turned out to be such a cheeky person. Sad, because, he is not being honest. That's sad. The more I think about it, the worst it is.

I do agree that I think too much at times. Perhaps it's because I come from Venus, and he is from Mars. That is also the reason why, diamond is a girl's best friend...and for men....guess what.........a dog is their best friend :D

John Gray came out with another book, perhaps I should get a copy!

Weddophobia

A new word was born today: "weddophobia". You can't find it in any dictionary yet, and you sure can't google to find it's definition. This is the site where you will first discover this word - "weddophobia". Simply put, this is a condition experienced by homo sapiens - male or female..the fear of wedding, or more accurately, fear of marriage. I'm doomed. I am a weddophobia. Is it curable? No idea.

I just came back from a short trip with my bf, and weddophobia hits me again. Do I really want to spend my whole life with him? Can I live with him forever and ever? Less than six months of our wedding, it struck me again. It all started from a small incident.

Being booked on a non-smoking floor, my bf smoked in the bathroom! Already, I am putting up with his smoking habit (he knew I hated it) and he usually will walk away to smoke...but that day, he just decided to puff it in the bathroom. Can you imagine that?! How can a person be so lazy and self-centred....gosh! I tried to ignore it, but I can't. In the end, I snubbed him.

Total silence.

He continued playing with his handphone as if it doesn't matter.

Goodness me.

At that point of time, weddophobia came kicking in. What if he smokes in our home next time? (Although he already did now, but I am not staying there yet) I always find that kissing a smoker is akin to kissing an ashtray. Yuck! Imagine that! But then again, tolerance they say. There are millions of smokers in the world, and gosh...how can they stand it??!! My bf was previously a non-smoker. It was so hurtful on the day I found out that he finally gave into this temptation...after so many years. Stress, he said. Sad, I told him.

Weddophobia, weddophobia. I am now having second thoughts for 27th Dec 2008. Sigh.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Oh, excuse me. That is the sound of my biological clock....tick-tocking away... :P

One of the main reason I made this decision to walk down the aisle is the fact that, I am ready to start a family. I used to dislike kids, but now, I simply adores them. Scary eh? They said that in every woman, there is always a motherly figure in us. That's why we tend to be caring and thoughtful. That's why, I love my dog. I do treat it as my kid. Scary? Yeah! But that's how it is, my dog is the love of my life, and I dread to think the days without her. (erm, of course, no 2 after my bf la)

Anyway, last Saturday was a date of the "cheh-cheh" (not aunties) with a girlfriend of mine together with her kid. Although tired, I did enjoy myself. I am truly amazed with the bond my friend has with her kid. It is superly amazing to foster such closeness. And strange enough, it reminds me of my dog.

So, I better hurry to tie the knot and hopefully, god willing, I will have someone calling me "mummy" and I might get the chance to gaze into him/her with a loving stare...just like the pic below:

Ex and Exes

Talk about an old friend. An old flame. A long lost buddy. Ex-classmate. Ex-schoolmate. Ex-Boyfriends. Ex-girlfriends. Ex-Lovers. Ex this and ex that.

Somehow, the excitement is still there. Amazing. Excitement here doesn't mean you fall head over heels again, but, more to re-discovering a lost emotion. Sweet thoughts will be replayed, moments will be cherished and how we wish, we could turn back time.

I do believe that things happen for a reason. Good things happen for a reason. So does bad things. In my opinion, good things happen to you too because you have been a good person. However, bad things happen not because your are bad though. It happens to good people too. Sometimes, it is a blessing in disguise. Most of us - homosapiens - take things for granted. That's why I do believe that bad things happen to remind you of how lucky you are. How blessed you are. :) The lessons will leave us stronger and many times, without fail, a better person. Life will become much more meaningful! Good and/or bad? It's karma.

I have met many wonderful people in my journey of life. Some of them are simply unforgetable. Like today, I met an old friend, whom reminds me of the older days. We still constantly keep in touch via emails..but due to busy schedules, there are just not enough time to pen down our thoughts or updates about our life. So, I was happy and glad to see the "0duc" online today, as we managed to chat a little, and even exchanged smilies. Simple things like this is enough to make my day. Sweet memories last forever, they say...how true it is!

Let us strive to work lesser, and have more time with our friends and family. And most important of all, more time for ourselves...like me...I still have a wedding to plan and gosh, it is already mid June!!!

Dear Thelma

Many times, we tend to offer advises after listening to other people's problem. Especially, relationship problems. Indeed, we usually empathise and try to understand the pain and hurt. That's why, women just love to read aritcles like "Dear Thelma", etc. I read something interesting today, and would like to replicate it here to share:

"Relationships are too complicated for anyone to simply unravel and put right. The parties involved are individuals with their own thoughts, judgements and feelings. (Hmm, so true isn't it? How many times, we would try to "put ourselves" into their shoes? How many times, have we listened and "judged"?)
How do we understand women who choose to be mistresses? Why do happily married men seek prostitutes and have affairs? What joy is there in secret tyrsts and messages when the bed is warm and the wife is sexy and gorgeous?

Men, and women, stray for their own reasons. Experts, counsellors and professionals can only guide and offer advise, and hope that those in need find the right solutions and happiness. (Friends, on the other hand, can always listen, perhaps give a beary hug...and a little advise from their own point of view.)
But, the truth is...those involved are the ones who have to live with the consequences of their actions. No one can share the pain and always, it is the children that suffers.

There is no airtight solution, no 10-point guides to success in marriages. We are individually responsible for our actions.

If we have love in our hearts and rational enough to understand the pain we can cause, then perhaps there will be better relationships."

Yeah right...if, and only ifs.... :P

Everything

I simply love this song by Michael Buble. Romantic and fun at the same time. Hmm, I am SERIOUSLY thinking of using this song as our march-in song! Huh? Well..I read in some bride's forum about "march-in" songs...at first, I thought it was the music/song for the first food presentation, u know, the kind where lights are dimmed and suddenly you have lines and lines of waiters/waitresses marching in with the first dish of the night! (Urgh, I don't quite like it but darn, it is some sort of a standard food presentation for weddings)

Anyways! Wedding march-in song is different. Apparently, it was the song that is played when both the bride and groom sashay into the restaurants. The one where the bride walks hand in hand with the groom, gleaming in delight, waving like she just won the Miss Universe title.

So, yeah..if I can choose, I would luv to have this song as our march-in song :)

Hear this song: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/michael_buble/everything.html

He's MINE!!!!

Yipeeee!!! RM500/= deposit PAID!! Done DEAL!! He is none other than Mr Lawrence Ng, the wedding photographer! Who else do you think I will PAY to be MINE? :P

Anyway, met with Lawrence earlier today at Sunway Pyramid. I have never met him before and is clueless on how he looks like. When I walked in to cafe, my eyes did a quick glance and I noticed this gentleman sitting alone with some bags, and look like ... errm, well...a photographer. I approached him and ask, "Are you Lawrence?" Yes! I am GOOD! Although I have never gone to a blind date, thanks to my sales experience where I have to meet clients everywhere, sometimes at hotel lobby (for hotel clients, not the other type!), sometimes at Starbucks, here, there...everywhere. Most of the time, my guessing is correct :)

Lawrence showed me some photo album which he did..simple and nice! Told him that I will decide whether to add-on the album AFTER I see his masterpiece at my wedding. Also told him that I have seen most of his works at his website, so...don't need to see the prints anymore! Asked him for some discounts, but he seemed like a real nice guy - I then decided not to bargain, but to request that he do a good job for me. You know, not only the bridge and groom...I have a dog! And, it's not a small dog :) Haha...

He used to be an IT guy, and turned to photography in year 2005. Married with two kids...I shared with him that, if I married 15 years ago, I would have teenage kids by now too :)

Well..fingers crossed! We'll wait and see!

Meeting with D Photographer

Tomorrow at 1pm, I have a lunch appointment with "my" wedding photographer. I put "my" because, it is still not confirmed whether he will be "mine". We spoke on the phone today - apparently, there is another bride-to-be from a bridal forum trying to book him for the same date. Talk about coincidence! My scheduled appointment was supposed to be on Saturday, so now, will make it earlier to see him and then, see how it goes! Being a sales person myself, this could most probably a sales gimmick, but what the heck, I have already made up my mind!

The main reason I selected this guy is that I find his photos somehow makes my heart smile :) Or could it be the photo he took - the one with the cute little dog? Being a dog lover, I was really captivated by that pic. Hehehe...crazy. Shouldn't it be focusing on the bride/groom? The dog?

Well, indeed...my dearest dearest Betsy is my heart and soul. Luv her so much!

Cake Topper

Since I am hot on cakes at this moment, I surfed the net for interesting cake toppers! In Malaysia, you have to "rent" there cake toppers...and yes, it doesn't come cheap. Again, another optional item...but then again, *ahem* this cake topper can be used over and over again. You see, when we celebrate our anniversary, we can use this cake topper again...right? :) Err..or..erm...I can use it as a deco item... :) Ahh...well, I can make up 101 reasons to justify...if I REALLY want it :)

Too bad they don't ship direct to MY. I guess I have to get someone to help me to purchase it...who..who...can help me? Hmmm....I think, I better compile all the items I want, and get him/her to help to send it over to MY. Once in a lifetime favour, I am sure they are more than willing to help out :)




My personal favourite is this but too bad, I am not buying this one though :P
Expensive? Nah... No Stock? Nah...

Instead, this is the one that I will purchase...(I mean, if I really buy one...)....

Reason being...my bf is the type that is a little 'conservative'...and I can imagine the look on his face if he sees such cake topper! Haha!

So, this one is okay. Cute, and it's okay... :) Really.
First lesson in marriage, it not always about me, me and me, but me AND him. US. Yeah, us. :)

Wedding Cakes

Should I, or should I not? Petrol price increases by 40%, sooner or later...food prices will increase, etc, etc. So, should I, or should I not? Budget....hmm...OMIGOSH! I don't think I have one!

The restaurant is providing the wedding cake as a package. So, again...should I, or should I not?? Even if I don't take up the wedding cake from the restaurant, there will be no discount.

But look at these... Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....................

It is a fact that, it is not a neccessity, but it is good to have one.......*thinking*........anyway, sent out emails to few of these wonderful cake houses for pricing...will see...

Butterfly kisses...

I was driving home today, stuck in the jam (many crazy people are rushing to the petrol kiosks as fuel prices will increase by 78cents/litre) and suddenly, this song was aired on the radio - Butterfly kisses sung by Bob Carlisle...
Hmm, it brought back so much memories of....my dad.

I guess, every girl dreams of the "perfect" wedding. My version is not a white knight, nor a fairy tale wedding dream. All I wanted to do, was to have a dance with my father, in my wedding gown. A final dance of a father and daughter, before she continues her journey of life. I still remembered those days, where he taught me to dance. Cha-cha, waltz...you name it! Dad luvs dancing. Ballroom dancing to be exact. I still remembered those days when I came back from Dancing Lessons taught at the gym...I would show dad the new steps I've learnt, put on some music, and dad would hold and guide me the right steps. Practice makes perfect, he said. Ahh...those were the days. It is so sad that, when I finally decided to walk down the aisle...he is not here to share this happy occassion with me. He is not here to be a part of my life anymore.

Sometimes, I just wished I could turn back time so that I can get married earlier... so that the most important man in my life, is there for me sharing the most important day of my life....Well...if...and only if...

Happy Father's Day, dad...missed you as always...